confessions

I don't know why people change their mind so quickly and randomly. I mean, like one day they're becoming nice to you, but the next day they don't even think that you exist. This thing kills me, because I cannot easily change my mind, once I think of this, the next day, maybe i'll still think about it.
And I don't know why some of the people are fukin mean, I don't get it. We are all cousins no matter what. I don't know why there's a bullying, etc. I'd kill myself if I see myself doing it.
I suffer all of those feeling. Not suffer, but they make me suffer. It's so depressing and it's whole life changing. I just wanna end this.